They saw everything.

Results.

DAY 90 - the end

i did something different today

DAY 89 - lessons learned/new vision

No surrender.

No fucking hesitation.

In battle there is no law. 

Instincts must be followed.

The precious seed must be sown.

The bloodline must not be interrupted.

This is the righteous path, the path to immortality.

Sometimes you have to fall in order to learn how to stand.

One day until re-birth, one day until a new cycle begins.  I love it, but I hate it.

No more life without sense.

DAY 88 - SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST

the library was closed today for no apparent reason

all of my neighbors are gone but they left their possessions and computer equipment behind

it has begun.


















tonight I have a mission of grave importance

MUNUS SIGSIGGA AG BARA YE
INNIN AGGISH XASHXUR GISHNU URMA
SHAZIGA BARA YE
ZIGASHUBBA NA AGSISHAMAZIGA
NAMZA YE INNIN DURRE ESH AKKI
UGU AGBA ANDAGUB!

day 87 - everything connects

day 86

i think i went to high school with one of those people theyre probably the ones who told on me because they remember me and they know that im shredded now and that im not the same guy so now theyre jealous and probably afraid of me which they should be because im not the same guy they remember and im shredded now

day 85

so i guess im gonna be posting from the library for a little until i get some money. i was thinking about trying to get an agent to do some modeling as i hear you can make good cash for just like a few hours of work which is what a guy like me really should be doing

im not like all these fucking poor people here im not gonna slave away at mcdonalds when someone like me deserves to get paid much better for easier work maybe if they stopped jacking off to porn all day and spending all their time listening to shitty music with their homo friends or cranking babies they could get better jobs or if they worked out maybe theyd have some confidence and wouldnt have to hang out at the library all day looking for shit to do

fucking losers

im going to go into one of the quiet rooms and do a few sets of plyo-pushups

id like to see them stop me

zi kia kanpa (zee-kee-ya-kan-pa)
zi anna kanpa (zee-an-na-kan-pa)
zi dingir kia kanpa (zee-deen-geer-kee-ya-kan-pa)
zi dingir anna kanpa (zee-deen-geer-an-na-kan-pa)
hear me, o thou zulummar
come to me by the powers of the word zulummar

and answer my urgent prayer!
zi kia kanpa
zi anna kanpa

day 84

I await the moment, I am prepared.
There will come a time in life to take control.
To protect thyself and my own.
I will kill if need be.
Society feeds on each other as prey.
I will not become a victim, rather a predator if needed.
Human life means little, little to me.
If you lash at me you have chosen your fate.
Life as you know will cease to exist.

DAY 83

i went to the pawn shop down the road today owned by one of those sleazy shitty foreign dudes......traded in my gay James Hetfield ESP explorer and got something i can really use...


all you jealous internet shit talkers better watch your backs

day 82

just did over 1000 ab-targeting movements....i didnt even count how many different exercises i did

i know they say targeting specific muscles to achieve fat loss and tone doesnt work but they also say that you need to buy drugs to be normal and make all these scientific claims about shit that they probably dont know

the proof comes from experience and my experience tells me these people are full of shit. i know what works

i know what gets results

i know how my body processes energy and food and how FUCKING WASTEFUL it is

just pay attention sometime

what color is it you know? when it comes out

what color do you think it should be? clear

waist waste waist weighs waist waste

day 81

i think i hear people walking around outside of my apartment

its usually quiet so i DEFINITELY NOTICE ANY DIFFERENCE

LITERALLY ANY DIFFERENCE AT ALL

i have some very important ideas and information that i want to get out to the world but im not gonna tell anyone about it just yet because people are going to steal my ideas just look at nikola tesla he died all broke and he was a genius because everyone stole his shit because he went around talking about it instead of doing it and getting the rights and the patents and the copyrights because he wasnt thinking because he was a weak fucking dumbass

but its revolutionary i think. as long as it works which its going to

im sure of it but im not going to let some internet FAGGOT take it

anyway i dont give a fuck who is walking around outside, no one is going to get in unless i let them in here. like a girl or something

i feel sorry for any of the motherfuckers out there who are even considering fucking with me or taking any of my shit or telling me to do something without knowing who they are dealing with

day 80

im gonna write a book on nutrition and workout shit and start my own program and people are going to pay me for it and im going to get rich

SO FUCK YOU

day 79

i am fucking unstoppable

send whoever you want it wont make any fucking difference youre all a bunch of pussies anyway

im on a mission and ive only got 11 more days left and i wont let anything stand in my way. not my stupid shitty family, not my fucking loser friends, not dumb girls, not my fucking asshole landlord or some pig piece of shit

put whatever you want on my door i dont give a fuck im not signing anything. try and stop me you bitches, but you wont because you know you cant so you may as well just bow to me under your own decision before i fucking make you

i told that fucking idiot that i would pay him and catch up and i will because word is bond

day 78

i dunno what happened today

i know that i didnt make the workout too hard because i sat and i diagrammed it out and really did a lot of measurements i mean with the weights that ive been working on and the moves ive been practicing i shouldnt have had any problems

i should have AT LEAST BEEN ABLE TO GO FOR THE THIRD HOUR

AT LEAST AT LEAST AT LEAST

what the fuck
i dont get it
im ready i know im ready i know i am and that i can do this this is what i was made to do this is what my body is being shaped to do to overcome any physical obstacle

endless blockades for the pussyfooter

i can do this im gonna try again tomorrow

day 77

im doing a new workout today thats basically all plyometric weight lifting that i kind of developed myself. im stoked to try it out and to push myself to my limits......it involves some brazilian jiu jitsu moves too

i bet ill really outdo my own expectations because ive been working so hard and pushing it

no pain no gain

day 76

people get hung up on the littlest most simple things sometimes and they let it stop their progress and halt their lives and dont realize that life is like a muscle and when it gets hard, thats when you've just gotta really bring it and keep it real and push it harder through all the pain

and thats how you get stronger whether youre talking about legs or the human mind or emotions or whatever. you cant stop and sit and waste your time when you could be doing something productive and getting stronger

she's dead and i wish everyone would just stop talking about it like it happened yesterday or something. boo fuckin hoo

day 76

everything happens for a reason

day 76

day 75

so im reading the fuckin dumb news and apparently the world is all fucked up but look at this

http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20101110/hl_nm/us_adhd_obesity

it says ADHD is linked to adulthood obesity according to this one study
its pretty obvious that people have ADHD because there is something wrong with them so that they eat a bunch of sugar and soda and other bullshit that they crave which makes them more hyper and probably makes them eat more sugar OBVIOUSLY

so youre gonna get fat hahahahahahahahahaha

oh shit look at this one:

ORAL SEX OFTEN A PRELUDE TO INTERCOURSE FOR TEENS

http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20101102/hl_nm/us_oral_sex

hahahahaha isnt it often a prelude to intercourse for everyone hahahaha fuckin stupid the news sucks

i gotta go work out my triceps. chair dips then im gonna get more coffee so this geranium extract works twice as hard and burns more fat not because my triceps are fat (they arent theyre pretty toned now)

day 74

what the fuck, why wont anyone subscribe to my blog

I READ ALL THE STUPID SHIT YOU PEOPLE ARE WRITING WHY IS NO ONE READING MINE WHEN IM OBVIOUSLY WORKING HARDER AND WRITING ABOUT COOL SHIT

AND IM PROBABLY IN BETTER SHAPE THAN HALF THE FUCKING PEOPLE WHO SPEND ALL THIS TIME ON THEIR FUCKING FANCY LAYOUTS AND SHIT - THEIR BLOGS THAT ARE PROBABLY RUN BY GOOGLE OR SOME HUGE CORPORATION OR THE GOVERNMENT THAT ARE GOING TO EXTRACT YOUR DATA ANYWAY ISNT THAT OBVIOUS THATS WHY THEY MAKE IT LOOK SO FUCKING GOOD AND MAKE YOU READ IT?

day 73

jason statham is pretty awesome and i dig that he's like, a real bald dude who is an action hero that isnt bruce willis. and chicks seem to be pretty into him too and he isnt like some pretty boy faggot or whatever but he's still good looking

i dunno i was looking at pictures of him though and he has kind of weak arms at least in this picture

my arms are definitely bigger and more defined although im probably not as tall as he is. ive been doing some acting work just to see what i look like on camera now and im actually pretty good. i think i wanna audition for some movies even if im just gonna be cast as like "the muscular guy" or a bouncer at a club or something. i dunno though actors make a ton of money and they get a lot of women what else do you want right

his face is kind of pointy too and ive always been told that my face is kind of round. i think i might call that girl again soon but i need to sell some shit so i can get some money so i can take her out

day 72

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day 71

im getting a lot of acne on my inner thighs probably from my pants chaffing. i dunno maybe i should look into some supplements for my skin. i hope its not eczema i used to have it when i was a kid and it sucked


time to do back exercises for a few hours

day 70

is it fucked up that i actually think a lot of chicks look better when they kind of have eating disorders? i mean not too much but where you can see a lot of their definition in their neckbones




this chick would be perfect if she had bigger tits, its too bad girls tits kind of shrink when they stop eating i guess. sidenote: i just saw a chick in this shitty KROKUS video who looks just like her

day 69

DAY 69

Yup.

day 68

i met someone today....really cool girl. really fit and attractive, likes to watch me work out...i dunno, its pretty sweet. we just kinda hung out for a little bit today, no pressure or anything. it was kinda awkward at first but then we kind of bonded over working out i guess.

great minds think alike

i dunno im thinking ill probably be calling her a lot as things kinda pick up and once i get another job...then i'll get the chance to really show her who i am instead of just how good of shape im in

day 67

so i got a new camera today. its nice and i didnt even have to pay for it because the girl at the counter liked me. i just told her i was gonna take it and smiled at her and thats all i needed to do and it became mine.

LOOKS LIKE EVERYTHING IS COMING UP DREWCIFER

day 66

so my dad fucked up my video camera tonight after he was being a faggot, im just gonna go get another tomorrow

day 65

i need to work more on my triceps. theyre not nearly as defined as they should be. i remember before i really got with the program i didnt even know i had triceps let alone what they were. i probably would have thought they were a dinosaur or something. but now that im getting shredded i can sit and i can look at my arm and really see how everything works and what muscles help me with what activities and how what im doing really benefits me on a day to day level. people take for granted all of these muscles and how every single thing you do works some of them so they dont understand how important it is to keep them straight and to really maintain them. i dont want to end up some old decrepit dipshit in a wheelchair or something because i didnt take care of myself. fuck i mean i had like a gut and everything when i started and i had a weak lower back but now after toning a lot of those muscles and really focusing those exercises i can do all sorts of shit that i just always figured was like, something thats always gonna be messed up like i was born with a bad back or something when really i just never took the time to develop the muscles which i should have been doing all along i saw this kid named "little hercules" on youtube i think or it was the discovery channel or maybe it was lifetime im not really sure but he was this kid who was super ripped and like 8 years old and just in great shape and had like a really supportive family who was all about helping him work out and getting famous just by being healthy it was super cool. i mean, man, how lucky to be working out at such an early age - ive been fucking up most of my life by not doing any of this stuff earlier and im lucky i caught it before something happened like i bent down to pick up a newspaper and got a hernia and then got a broken dick and became a crazy alcoholic drunk like Nate was hahahahahahahahahahah!!!!

day 64

im sure glad i spent all this time collecting rare CDs and records and tapes and shit. im selling a lot of this stupid shit to the place down the street who are totally stoked to get a bunch of this rare bullshit. who cares

im not some fucking metal nerd anymore and i dont really need any of that stuff. its not helping me advance in life or achieve any of my goals and its just kind of taking up space anyway. so im just going to sell the shit to help me pay for a few things that are gonna help me really bring my A game to my work outs every day