day fucking 15

i'm so fucking pissed right now

i went to do my workout and SUDDENLY i cant do a FUCKING THING. i did like, four pushups and suddenly i couldnt do anymore. its seriously the most frustrating thing ive ever encountered to randomly not be able to do some shit that i SHOULD be able to do without any problem at all, especially after being able to do it all this time

i wonder what the fuck happened? why did this happen? what am i doing wrong

i guess this just fucking goes to show you that anything can go to shit whenever, and just when you think things are good and okay everything gets fucked up again, because thats just the fucking way life is - a bunch of bullshit

so ill just work harder and maybe pay better attention to what i'm eating, or maybe i'll read into supplements more instead of just talking some fucking jerkoff's advice on the internet. ill do my own fucking research and figure it out, like the videos say - do whats best for me.

i feel like such a fucking loser about this. im not gonna let it happen again. bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit BULLSHIT